Monday, September 27, 2010


Yes, that's me! Missing but still in ACTION. There has been a ton going on for us the last week and going to stay pretty busy through the next few days. 30 Days of Me was supposed to prohibit my blogging about all the teeny-tiny steps and hurdles we had to jump through just to get where we're going; a.k.a. Germany. I don't think anyone really needs to hear all the ins-and-outs; it'd either scare you or bore you so I was trying to protect you from it all. Unfortunately it's weezled in and found a way to completely take over my life- DUH! Of course it would, you dummy (no, not YOU. Me, Dummy)! But here's the thing, how would a move across the world not consume ones life? Especially at this stage.
As I sit here typing away updating you all, I have three random broads packing up all my crap. (PS: these random broads are a HUGE HUGE step up from the 2 tooth-less guys who were here on Friday packing up and hauling away Kev's Unaccompanied crapola.) So we're smack in the swing of all the madness right now. If you know me you know I like to keep a clean and tidy house. My house is naturally nothing but clean and tidy at the present time. Our stuff is everywhere. It's an understatement to say it's been effecting my sanity to have so much disorder surrounding me. I know that it's only temporary. I'm hoping by the end of the day I'll be in a little better place since things will be boxed up... you know, out of sight and all of that good stuff.

So yes, preparing to have our things packed up and shipped away has consumed my thoughts and time the last four days I've barely had time to update Facebook or Twitter, nevermind sitting down to write an entire blog. Last Friday I put out this month's addition of L+S's Cupcake Club, it may have been A Day Late and A Dollar short but it was announced all the same. I did manage to get mine all baked up as well with pictures and all. I just have to track down my camera and blog about it! haaa! Thanks to everyone for participating and linking up!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Day late...

AND a dollar short!

Yesterday was supposed to be the BIG September cupcake announcement, for L+S's Cupcake Club. I'm sorry that I'm a day late but I 've been pretty sick since yesterday AM. Turns out I have a pretty severe inner ear infection which caused me to be dizzy and nauseous. I'm on the mend now though! Thank the lord.

All the same this month's addition, is Martha Stewart's recipe for Marble Cupcakes, you can find it on page 90 of Martha's Cupcake Cook Book or you can find it here.

Get baking ladies!!! You can come back here, and link-up to share your Marble cupcake do's and don'ts as well as your overall experience with this recipe.

***Maybe two dollars short, since this jacked up and didn't post yesterday (9.20) as it was supposed to! Sorry Lola! ={


Monday, September 20, 2010

Day 10 {What you wore today}

Nothing. Friggin. Special: khaki shorts, navy blue Hurley T, and Under Armour flip-flips. Which worked because the day consisted of kickin' it with Cookie and Erin. We took a ride through the mountains to capture the Aspen leaves changing colors. Oddly enough we found some yellows, oranges and a little red yet it was 90 degrees.... such is life here in Colorado. Hopefully the weather will make the switch to Fall, ASAP. 

We had a great time and enjoyed the amazing views... unfortunately the Altitude hit us both pretty hard. I proceeded to spend the remainder of my day on the COUCH, feeling pretty out of it, yucky!

Stay tuned, tomorrow for September's addition of L+S's Cupcake Club! 

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Day 9 {Your beliefs}

I was raised a good Catholic girl. I find a lot of comfort in the Catholic traditions. I've attended another churches and services but never felt any connection like I did during Catholic Mass. So what does this really have to do with my beliefs? I was raised with Catholicism, but I'm not a practicing Catholic. Sometimes I feel like I need the comfort or connection of Mass but not always. I believe that what matters is my faith and my relationship with God, not my attendance in a stained glass windowed building on Sundays.

I believe in being a good, moralled, and honest person over being religious. I know plenty of "religious" people that are nothing more than hypocrites. I don't have anything against conservative-religious folks.... I believe in allowing people to be who they are, without judgement.

I believe that I'm tired and excited to kick it with Erin tonight... I think there's a chick-flick in my future.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Day 8 {A moment}

Which moment? The moment I was born.... yea, don't remember.

A moment that changed my life? Which one? There's been so many!

How about a moment where I realized I have a choice; a choice in everything. I have the ability to choose happiness in the face of any situation. Life isn't always fun or easy or what you want it to be. But my life is a product of all the choices I've made. Everything, good or bad is a result of my choices. I know that some people say, "I didn't choose to get laid off and fall behind on bills...." or "I didn't choose illness." But you always have the option to choose how you handle any of these things that happen to you. At one point you chose that job that laid you off, does that mean you chose to be laid off? No. What I mean is that we always have the freedom of choice. You may not always be given the options you'd like so you choose the best of the worst and you choose to happiness in the face of all the negativity.

I didn't always have this knowledge (and honestly, it's often difficult to remember). I used to be pretty pessimistic and dare I say, bitter. Someone would say "the sky is blue," or any such, harmless comment and I'd have a negative response, "well it's going to rain later, which will make it dangerous to drive and muggy." Whatever you'd say, I'd say something unpleasant in response. This behavior however, harmless my intentions always were began to weigh on my soul. There is nothing worse than negativity and hatred in your heart weighing on  your soul. I began taking stock of my life and realized how the things coming out of my mouth actually sounded; how they were received by others and was shocked.

I made a change.

I chose to change. I chose to be more positive. I try to smile when people are mean to me, when every instinct in my body screams for my to karate chop them in the neck! I try to 'woosah' when I'm stressed, so not to overreact or pass my stress onto others, namely my sweeter-than-I-am-Husband.

I really remember being upstairs in the hallway talking to my husband while he was deployed, being sick and tired of beating myself up over not having a job, which at that point was really changing the way I felt about myself, and my self-worth.I told Kevin that it might sound corney but I'm tired of being the way I am, being some negative all the time and that I'm tired of feeling bad about myself because I couldn't find a job in the horrible economy, so I was going to make a solid effort to be more happy and less negative. I reminded myself out loud, during a conversation with my husband that I can't change the economy; I can only spend so much time making my resume look outstanding: There was only so much that I could choose to do that would have an effect on my situation... But no matter the outcome of any application I submit I was going to choose to believe in myself and be confident that I'd done everything I could to find a job.

At the end of the day there are things that are out of my control, but I've chosen to be where I am (in one way or another) so whether it's a good day or a bad day I'm going to choose happiness over the negative!

Day 7 {Your best friend}

Like peas to a pod.....
Like a dog to a fire hydrant.....
Like Forest to Jenny.....
Like the Army to bullshit....
Like High School to Drama....

Amanda is my best friend. We've put each other through some crap in our day. But we've also had a lot of fun. No matter the distance between us:
Exhibit A

Exhibit B

we've always been there for each other... when we weren't "breaking up" with each other. But you're stuck with me now. Now that you have my Godson. You love harder and fight more fiercely for those you love than anyone else I've ever met. I'm grateful to have a person like you in my corner. I love that I am accepted by you no matter what mistake I make or nasty thing I say or bitchy-irritated-foul mood I'm in. You get me and allow me to be who I am, in whatever state (mentally and physically) I'm in.

Thank you.

I'm blessed to have Amanda in my life... but I'm very much blessed by all the other friends I have in my life: To my BFF (you know who you are), Erin, LB, Nikki and many others my life is different for having known each of you. I wouldn't be who I am with out having met you. Thank you for being in my life and being such wonderful friends to me.

I also need to give a special shout out to my interweb friends (you also know who you are)... thanks for being so sweet and supportive!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Day 6 {Your day}

Ok, so I'm a day late... Sue me. Yesterday was mine and Kevin's 3 year Anniversary. My day began just the way it normally does:
615: Alarm goes off. *SNOOZE*
645: Found the motivation to get out of bed and fix myself for the day.
730: Leave the house and head to work.
745: Begin my "work" day.

Then at some point during the mid-morning I decided it would be a great idea to Tweet to @KellanLutz, @KimKardashian and @KhloeKardashian encouraging them to support their mil-folks (soldiers and fam's) by spreading the word about Trees for Troops, and voting for them to receive a $250,000 grant via Pepsi Refresh. (just as a side note you must go vote, you're allowed 10 votes daily and this is a great program providing Christmas trees for military members and their families!) Well, evidently (my lover, we're on the verge of a breakup over this) Kellan only supports causes pertaining to ailing children and animals.... no love for the military or their families! Same goes for Kim and Khloe. Shame on you famous people.. SHAME, SHAME!
Until 445 my day was pretty lame, consisted of chatting on Facebook and AIM, taking lunch and reading blogs. At 445 pm my anniversary officially began! I left work early to get ready for a fancy dinner with my Hubbin. We went to the Peppertree, it was most definitely fancy-pants! We had a really great time and enjoyed the view and time spent together!

All in all, I had a pretty great day and a wonderful anniversary with my Hubbin! I'm a lucky girl.

Stay tuned later today for Day 7 entry! I'll stay on track if it's the last thing I do!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Day 5 {Your definition of LoveDay}

I wasn't so sure where to start this post. What are we referring to with this "LoveDay": Valentines Day, maybe? I just didn't know... so I did what we all do when we're lost and searching for direction: Googled!

I found out that Global Love Day is May 1st, well according to The Love Foundation... and I concur. My birthday is May 1st. So I really couldn't think of a better day to deem "Global Love Day."

Well on the topic of amore, I'd have to agree with (and quote) Brandi and say, "I would not define "love day" as Valentines Day. A day full of love shouldn't be celebrated once a year but daily. A day full of love for me doesn't have to be anything special. There doesn't have to be a big dinner, a romantic walk, or even flowers. A day that could be called "love day" for me would be a day spent with the person you care about doing the things you enjoy doing." I think we all know that we begin to take advantage of those we love and that we have them, there. While I am not a fan of the idea of Valentines Day sometimes we can all use the reminder. 

Tomorrow is quite the reminder of amore for me. Tomorrow is mine and Kevin's 3 year anniversary. Last May I blogged about the day Kevin and I got married. The past two days I've spent a lot of time looking at my rings and remembering that day and feeling extremely blessed. I love my husband and while we aren't perfect we work perfectly well together. We may bicker and argue, hurt each other's feelings but we always know that there's love at the end of the day. I never have to wonder if Kevin's thinking of me or misses me. I know. 

Today I was feeling kind of disappointed that we didn't have a HUGE to-do planned for our anniversary. Anyone else think it sucks that it falls smack-dab in the middle of the week? But I reminded myself that every time I hear "My Love" or see it in a text that it's the small things that matter and what Brandi said was exactly right: "There doesn't have to be a big dinner, a romantic walk, or even flowers. A day that could be called "love day" for me would be a day spent with the person you care about doing the things you enjoy doing."

Monday, September 13, 2010

Day 4 {What you ate today}

Breakfast: 100% Whole Wheat Bagel Thin
Lunch (aka Pig Fest): Ramen, 2 cookies, a handful of pretzels and lemonade.
Dinner is still in the works but I'm thinking something a long of the lines of leftovers....

Usually my lunch consists of apple sauce and a sandwich or just a salad.But today is special because you know, I have the cramps. In my current state I'd prefer to pluck out my girl-bits with a spoon over dealing with the damn cramps. You can ask my friends.... I get the intense ones: The kind that will stop me dead in my tracks at the PX and moan in pain. Yea... they said I'd be good to go once I decide to start birthing my spawn. Time will tell.

Today was supposed to be about what I ate but turned into more of a bitch-fest about being a girl (in all it's glory).

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Day 3 {Your parents}

I get to tell you about my parents today! I have amazing parents, not everyone can be so lucky. Not everyone feels the same way about their parents as I do. Not everyone was raised so well. (no that's not "tooting" my own horn, its just true: I was raised well.)

I've always been more like my father than anyone else in my life. We're both stubborn, and sometimes hard to deal with. We're both proud, patriotic and loving. Plus, I look just like my Dad. I think we can both be pretty crass at times.

My mother and I haven't always been on the same side of certain issues. Regardless of how we felt we always made an effort to treat each other with respect. My mom has always been there for me, always supported me.

I am extremely blessed.

And sleepy so I'm cutting this entry short!
NAPPY time!

Day 2 {Your first love}

Today's entry came a little late in the day.... better late than never right?

I guess I should start by telling everyone that I didn't get a lot of play in high school. My first boyfriend and I were 'together' for two years. His name was Bryan. After Bryan my next relationship was my husband. Does that make me lame or prude? I don't think so... haaa!
(at least thats what I like to tell myself)

Anyway, I'm supposed to tell you about my first love. But what I'd prefer to tell you about is how at the end of the day he never loved me... I was too immature and inexperienced to know I deserved someone that appreciated my love and loved me back. Someone that had enough respect for me, to say "I don't feel the same way for you and I can't take advantage of your feelings for me knowing I won't love you back." Well, Bryan obviously wasn't that kind of man and at the end of the day that's exactly what he did, took advantage of my feelings for him and broke my heart.

Bryan and I ended over 5 years ago.

I met Kevin the following summer, a little more than a year post-Bryan. After Kevin fell for me (because you know, I'm that amazing... HA), he treated me like a queen. He loved me. It was nice to be loved. I treated me with respect. He even gazed at me. I could feel his love for me. He appreciated me.

You know the Rascal Flatts song, "Bless the Broken Road"? It reminds me of Bryan v. Kevin:

set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did

I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I loved Bryan once, but I appreciate him now for making me strong. Making me who I am today. Making me into a person who knew a good man when I found one. For teaching me; teaching me not to settle. Because, Bryan treated me with disregard I demanded more of myself and more of the men I met after him.

Anyone else think they call them "first loves" for a good reason? They're first loves for a reason?!* They're first loves so that you'll have a second possibly a third or even a fourth. That's my theory as to how it applies to my life and experiences.

*no offense to anyone who was blessed to find and keep their first loves for a lifetime.

I didn't forget (for anyone who's wondering) that today is 9-11. Today, I'm so proud to be married to a soldier, my hero. Today, i'm remembering the infamous events that took place 9 years go and how they forever changed the world; and how they have effected my life. 

Friday, September 10, 2010

Day 1 {Introduction}

Day 1 is all about me!
Where should I start? What don't you know about me, that I might want to share? Should I give you a run-down of all my stats: I'm 25; I'll be celebrating my 3rd wedding anniversary in 5 days; I have an affinity toward Coach glasses; I'm not very fashionable (I prefer comfort and affordibility); I'm proud Auntie to Nathan (4 yrs, in 19 days) and Logan (6 mos, in 5 days); I love my family and I believe strongly in the support of great friends; I'm commonly very hard on those I love; I expect a lot from people, but nothing I wouldn't give in return; I'm stubborn to a fault; (I like to think) I admit when I'm wrong and apologize; I'm a no-nonsense kind of gal with an extremely low tolerance for bullshit; If I'm unhappy, you're likely to know... my mojo/mood/vibe/juju is un-hide-able; I'm funny (ask anyone, I'm a ball, hilarious); I love Fall and Winter (I'll take being cold and cozy in a blanket over hot everyday of the week and twice on Sunday); I adore Christmas (what's not to love, decorations, presents and family time?); I'm beautiful and confident, yet definitel NOT conceited; I'm squishy around the edges (and gotten squishier the last few months, Booo); I'm frustrated and no a lover of the University of Phoenix (but, boy is that another story for another day); I'm smart; I'm not party-affiliated but pretty liberal; I'm good and fair; I'm a wine, chick-flick, popcorn lovin' amazing lady!!

There are a million more random tib-bits where those came from. I really feel like there is so much more about me that I want to share. I'm sure you'll learn a lot more about me over the course of the next 29 days! Bottom line:  I think everyone needs to know about me, is I'm real, I'm honest and I'd do anything for people I love.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

30 Days

I have had so much going on lately. I've been stressed to the point of concern. But we're starting to see progress; the light at the end of the tunnel if you will. We {finally} have Kevin's orders in-hand. That is a huge relief. The ladies that have been in my shoes know you need them to accomplish everything and anything. We have progress on other fronts also:
{1} Today I completed the application and turned all of my documents in for the No-Fee Passport! Another 4-6 weeks and I should be good to go!
{2} Tomorrow, Kevin will be attending the Transportation Briefing: Hello JPPSO!
*Everyone, please keep your fingers crossed that the JPPSO God's bless us with a packing date for all of our belongings.

Seeing as though I've been unmotivated to blog about anything inspirational lately (remember the stress?) I'm going to follow my friend, Brandi's lead and blog for 30 days about ME! Not about our  move, the house or my stress. I feel that we all know how the Army is and how dealing with the beaurocracy can be. I don't want to bore you all witless or bring you down with my stress. I'm going to blog about Me and my past for 30 days (and of course Cupcakes!!! Can't forget about the new recipe for September being announced in 16 days on the 25th). At the end of the 30 days you'll know me a little better and I'll catch you up on where we are with the move: house, dog, JPPSO, passports, cars ect!

The next 30 days will look a little something like this:
Day 1 {Introduce} 
Day 2 {Your first love} 
Day 3 {Your parents} 
Day 4 {What you ate today} 
Day 5 {Your definition of LoveDay} 
Day 6 {Your day} 
Day 7 {Your best friend} 
Day 8 {A moment} 
Day 9 {Your beliefs} 
Day 10 {What you wore today} 
Day 11 {Your siblings} 
Day 12 {What’s in your bag} 
Day 13 {This week} 
Day 14 {What you wore today} 
Day 15 {Your dreams} 
Day 16 {Your first kiss} 
Day 17 {Your favorite memory} 
Day 18 {Your favorite birthday} 
Day 19 {Something you regret} 
Day 20 {This month} 
Day 21 {Another moment} 
Day 22 {Something that upsets you} 
Day 23 {Something that makes you feel better} 
Day 24 {Something that makes you cry} 
Day 25 {A first} 
Day 26 {Your fears} 
Day 27 {Your favorite place} 
Day 28 {Something that you miss} 
Day 29 {Your aspirations} 
Day 30 {One last moment}

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


What a weekend!

Sooo much fun was had! So many memories made with the family. I had such a great time making pasta with my Grandmother. Taking Nathan bowling for the first time. Attending the 2nd annual 5k for the Fallen in Fountain with some fellow bloggers (and my hubby). We also went the Balloon Classic. Always an interesting parking situation there, but we got that sorted out and met up with the rest of the family.

We definitely had a jam-packed weekend. Yet, I still managed to squeeze in laundry, a dog walk, a few trips to Wal-Mart/Target, getting the cars cleaned AND some cleaning. I very conveniently "forgot" to clean bathrooms though. It'll get done today though. (in case you were worried about my potties)

Other than that Hubs should have his orders TODAY! woooooo! PROGRESS... thank the lord!
Keep your fingers crossed for more good luck!

Friday, September 3, 2010


We're PCSing to Germany the end of November. Everyone knows this by now (I hope, it's HUGE news). It is kind of stressful. There is so much to accomplish in these next 2 and a half months (OMG... two, wow, 2 months eeek). It's so hard to get things accomplished with Kevin spending so much time in the field and given the fact that we don't have his orders yet. I've been to the EFMP, and HR on Fort Carson has done everything they need to have me added to Kev's orders. Now we're waiting on Baumholder to do their thing and send them back. Waiting game. This is, of course, not new to the Army. We all know 'how' to Hurry up and Wait. But LORD. You're moving me across the world people. We have responsibilities here, stateside. We have entire aspects of our life that hang in the balance. 
  1. Our House! No one wants to buy it. Hell no one even wants to see it! :( boo. It's beautiful. But the market/economy sucks! So we have to rent it. Fine. So we know what has to be done. But we can get it done because we don't have Kevin's orders and can't schedule JPPSO to pack our shit. Since we don't know when we'll be out of the house we don't know when it will be available for rent.
  2. Our cars! We have to get rid of one. We could pay to ship it ourselves but no. We don't wanna. We've decided the best course of action is to sell my truck. The roads are smaller in Europe, plus the Lender won't allow us to take my truck out of the country (even with Military orders- CRAP, I know). So we're taking Kevin's Jetta over. German made. So far we have info ( on where the ship points are and what we have to do to get the car ready to ship. But we don't know when we have to drop it off... what's the time frame from when we fly out, report and can ship our car. Details people, we need details. 
  3. Our Dog! Kevin and I decided that Brody would be better off with my amazing-life-saver mother and father-in-law in San Diego. We just felt that Brody would like life better in SD versus a 970 sqft apartment with no outdoor living space. I am very tore up over the idea of letting Brody go but we just really feel its better for all parties. (thanks mother-in-law!!). Our original plan was to drive Brody to SD drop in with our in-laws and ship the car directly from there. Seeing as though we have no details on anything; kind of hard to make that "the plan"
So theres the update. I'm all scheduled to get my No-fee passport next week so at least that'll be done. Funny, that doesn't make me feel any better. All the same Kevin is out of the field for a couple of weeks (at least) so hopefully we'll make some headway. Here's to hopin'! 

Hope all of you out there enjoy your long Labor Day weekend! Get out and do something fun, we'll be spending quality time with the family... 

    Wednesday, September 1, 2010

    I Want it Wednesday...

    This addition of I Want it Wednesday will be special. You will see why!

    I Want it to be FALL! I love Fall. PS: Who calls it Autumn? Just wondering if people still use that word at all. Here in Colorado I think we've turned the corner from Summer to Fall. Temps have cooled off, highs are now (only) in the LOW 80's, which it doesn't reach until around 3-5. This makes for beautiful days. Comfortable. I think it's time to put away the Portable AC unit!
    I love all the colors that fall brings.

    I love the fall holidays.

    Fall will also bring our move to Germany.

    This glorious Wednesday has bred an amazing idea. I want... (really it just is a necessity- and Hollywood should read my blog and heed my needs) my boyfriend, Kellan Lutz

    (he's pretty)
    and Channing Tatum (you know him, if you're without a pulse you can salivate over him here) to do a movie together. I can't see how that would not make some studio a crap-ton of money. I'd see it multiple times, a day at least once.  

    Happy Hump day ladies.