The Guilt and shizzle

I'm excited to move. Well, I was anyway. I excited to get there, get settled into a routine, and not be depressed. When we first found out that we were going to Germany it was all excitement and "HOLY CRAP! We get to travel Europe!" but now it's Holy Crap I wont be here to see my youngest nephew, Logan start talking or walking. I won't be here to see Nathan start Basketball. I'm leaving just before Christmas. Logan's first Christmas.

The list of things I'm going to miss and not be apart of is never ending. Yesterday my husband got my our tickets to Germany booked, so I tell my mom and sister "we're leaving the US on December 8th." They both pout and say they don't like that at all. Then my friends.... GAH! I am leaving so much behind.

What do you do with the guilt of  knowing you're leaving behind people who love you and want you around?

Don't get me wrong... I'm still excited to go to Europe and travel and experience all the great things it has to offer. But for now the sadness and guilt is settling in.

What a day!

Have you heard of Regis and Kelly? Well if you don't then that's cool because I have! Well, today I got a wild hair up my butt and decided to enter their Girls Night Out Vegas Getaway.

Never in a bizzilion years thought they'd care about my all too common entry; I never win anything. Well, within an hour an inter called me! I freaked out... but you know, played it all to cool. Basically she requested I send her additional pictures. So I did! We'll see where it goes!

My husband got our tickets today. We're officially leaving US soil on December 8th. The passport issue is currently being rectified and should be returned no later than November 10th, God willing. Hopefully things go smoothly.... hopefully!

We're booking our trips to visit family prior to leaving. Things are coming together.

Still no word from our sponsor though. Anything I absolutely need to know that my sponsor would normally tell me?? Do share.

OOO, the biggest news of today was Whoopi and Joy walking out on Mr. Bill O'Reilly! ooO-wee! It was great TV people! I couldn't believe Bill said Muslims kills us.... wow.. what a Pinhead.

Watch all the drama here!

I Want it Wednesday...

Just heads up this is going to be a bitchy version of I want it Wednesday. Feel free to stop reading now if you'd like, I promise, I won't be offended.

I want... to know why the miners that found themselves trapped in Chile are "heros"? I'm not seeing what part of their ordeal makes them heroic? Don't get me wrong, my heart goes out to them and their families. I think that they've come through quite the ordeal and I'm so glad and grateful to hear the news reporting that so far everyone is doing well according to the Minister of Health. There are concerns of long-term effects such as claustrophobia, nightmares and anxiety which they'll have to keep an eye out for. But I still don't see how any of this makes them Heros?

PS: the guy who invited his mistress is hilarious!

I want... to know WHY my passport was processed wrong. It was received back on post today but it's wrong-o. It's supposed to be Blue but it's NOT. Swell. We'll find out soon what has to be done to get a new one. I hope it'll be rectified in a timely fashion so that I can still travel with Kevin on-schedule.

I want... some juice. I'm thirsty.

I really want... to have a house when we get to Germany so that we'll be able to celebrate Christmas and New Years like semi-normal people.

I want... my husband to stop being effin-cranky! I'm tired of it.

sorry for today's cranky edition of I Want it Wednesday.... it is what it is. 

Wanna Share...

I was so excited that on a weekend trip to Wally-World to find this:

This is reason number 4 I LOVE Fall/Winter! You may assume I put this in coffee. But noooo! I prefer it in my tea. It's delish! It's perfect day for a roast in the crock pot and hot tea; right now it's 47 degrees with a projected high of 53! <3

Reason number 1 why I hate being a girl: Cramps. Nuf said. 

A while back I was selected as a winner of a free photo shoot from Allie. Here's a few of my favs:

I'm a lucky girl. My hubs is a hottie and he still loves me even though I'm squishy. <3

There's much more to share about our move... we're finalizing our plans. Looks like we'll be heading out of the states after some traveling about visiting family, on December 7th. That feeling of "holy-crap-I'm-moving-across-the-planet-and-leaving-my-family-and-nephews," is settling in. It'll be ok though... right? 

I also have to share how the hubs and I spent our Columbus Day: We went to the movies. It's not that lame. We paid for Social Network (really good, btw) and stayed for The Town (awesome). Judge me if you must but movies are damn expensive these days... I feel after seeing two we got our monies worth. PS: Both are very much worth seeing and paying for. Maybe I should repent...?

Displaced.

It's been a week and 4 days since my house was packed up and loaded onto a truck and shipped away. I'm now without my favorite things; getting by with suitcases full of clothes and some toiletries. Seeing the house empty and moving on out was not a huge blow for me. It hit Kevin a bit harder. I love our place it's a great home... but I was never overly attached to it, you know? So we left our house and went to stay with my Dad. The plan was to be there until the end of Oct/beginning of Nov, then come to my mothers. Well, my dads dog (the dog our family had when I was in Middle and High School) is old, crotchety, and stuck in his ways. He was not a fan of my Brody! Then Monday AM he and my Dad's other dog attacked Brody twice within a minute. Brody's ok... a little bumped up but all-in-all he's ok, I think. I have to keep an eye on his eye... (haha) it's been blood shot since the attacks. Since that went down we knew we had to leave. So I packed, moved and unpacked all of our stuff twice within the span of one week. I'm exhausted.

Thankfully, we're settling into my mom's house. Brody is much happier here. I'm grateful to have both my parents here and to have options where I lay my head. It's not the same though. I wish I had my own home back, my own things. This kind of sucks. The sad part is I have no idea when it'll be any better. We finally received the amendment to Kevin's orders, which have my name on them. His orders also state that we're authorized "private rental housing." I got in touch with the housing office at Baumholder to verify that so we could start looking into our options out there. This guy was NO help what-so-ever. He just said that everyone E6 and below SHOULD be on post.... Yes our orders state otherwise- can you please clarify.... and NADA. So I'm still not sure whether we're be on or off post!

A perfect example of my distress: Today I went shopping with LB and we hit the Yankee Candle store. It's fall and there's plenty of great fall options! I really wanted to stock up with some great options... but then I remembered I have no end tables or dressers on which to put these candles! ={

I can't want to be settled into my space, be it on or off-post!

I Want it Wednesday...

On this lovely, cool and crisp day with dare I say virtually Fallish weather I want....

I want... German Pretzels. I saw on a fellow blog of someone currently residing in Germany, said that they attended a Pretzel Festival. I'm not sure there is anything greater on the planet. 
I want... to lose weight. I believe I've convinced my sister to venture out into this weight loss world with me. Hopefully we can motivate each other and find away to be successful!

I want... to attend the dueling rallies in Washington DC on October 30th.

  

If you don't know Jon Stewart is trying to Restore Sanity and Stephen Colbert is trying to Keep the Fear Alive. Check it out. Now you know.

I want.... my bed back. ={

Back on the saddle

So I'm back people. I finally have the time to sit and blog. It's currently 5AM. Just crazy! I'm never up at 5AM. Even when I was working I was never up at 5AM.

Lets recap the last few weeks. 30 Days of me was a complete FAIL! It was definitely a fun idea and fun participating up through day 9. Then life kicked in.... I trained my replacement at work (another Army wife). Had my last day at work. Baked Sep addition of L+S's CupCake club with Nathan by my side! (see  more below) Packers came. Loader's came. House is empty. Carpets are clean and the house is ready for a renter! Holler if you're moving to the Fort Carson/Peterson AFB/Colorado Springs area! We're now at my Father's house, finally just finished un-packing yesterday. 

It other news Nathan turned 4!! It's such a big boy... time really does fly. I have to run... but Marble Cupcakes were a huge success! 

No Caption necessary!

So far going pretty well.

Success! I did add store bough choc icing to half!
and?

Nathan saw the Cocoa powder and insisted on trying it....
YUCKY! Auntie told you baby... now maybe you'll listen!