Saturday, October 16, 2010

The Guilt and shizzle

I'm excited to move. Well, I was anyway. I excited to get there, get settled into a routine, and not be depressed. When we first found out that we were going to Germany it was all excitement and "HOLY CRAP! We get to travel Europe!" but now it's Holy Crap I wont be here to see my youngest nephew, Logan start talking or walking. I won't be here to see Nathan start Basketball. I'm leaving just before Christmas. Logan's first Christmas.

The list of things I'm going to miss and not be apart of is never ending. Yesterday my husband got my our tickets to Germany booked, so I tell my mom and sister "we're leaving the US on December 8th." They both pout and say they don't like that at all. Then my friends.... GAH! I am leaving so much behind.

What do you do with the guilt of  knowing you're leaving behind people who love you and want you around?

Don't get me wrong... I'm still excited to go to Europe and travel and experience all the great things it has to offer. But for now the sadness and guilt is settling in.

6 comments:

Mrs H. said...

I know how you are feeling. We just got to japan 3 days ago and we are already missing birthdays. Christmas is going to be hard this year.

So far skype and facebook are our life lines to our families back home.

Oh yea Congrats on going to Germany!

Bonnie said...

Sometimes you have to look at an overseas move as a once in a lifetime opportunity. How many times are you really going to be able to experience another country's culture in your life? There is so much wonderful to be apart of here.

You can always Skype and webcam and talk on the phone, and while I know that isn't the same as being there... it's still a way for you to be apart of your family's life.

I've lived in Germany for the last 3 years, I've got one more year left here and when my husband comes home from the deployment next year, we're PCSing back stateside... it's been 3 years since I've seen my family and 2 years since I've been back stateside... but I'm still hoping that we can get Germany again before the hubs retires.

armywife_b2010 said...

Congrats on the Germany Duty station. Friends and Family will learn one day that Your husbands job casues you to move from place to place. Thank goodness for computers, webcams, yahoo, aim, skype etc.

PS. I am a new follower :)

Committed said...

I don't know if there is anything to 'do' with the guilt. You just have to have faith that you're doing the right thing, that you're on the right path, and that missing all those things is going to make you a better person - a better, more cultured, well-rounded aunt!

I hope you have an amazing adventure ahead of you, and I can't wait to read all about it!

Sorry you'll miss Christmas with your friends and fam from home... Skype is a wonderful thing, but not the same as being there. Just enjoy your German white Christmas... time flies.

Hugs.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Aw, I think it's only natural to feel a little bit of guilt. But I'm sure they'll come visit you and love it there too!

Mrs. Tass said...

It is easier to leave then to be Left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just sayin.........

Signed,

The Person who is being left!!!