Monday, June 8, 2009

Winding Down

Lately I haven't been blogging as much as I once was. But from what I have told you all I have been under an extreme amount of stress with our looming disaster! I am still not positive where we go from here.. things are still up in the air but Kevin and I are finally on the same page! That was the main thing that was causing me so much stress; was feeling like I had to work through all of this on my own; that it was up to me to figure out and deal with. To an extent if I get a job that would fix our problems, so that is more or less on me. However, as I stated I haven't been successful locking down a job the past 9 months so at this point there is no reason for me to believe that it'll happen in the next 2 months. I am still looking and still applying, of course but I feel that we are at a point now where we have to limit the amount of damage that will be done to our finances... come up with a plan, a way to live on just Kevin's income.

Kevin spoke with Branch this morning and the idea of PCSing to get help with selling our house is off the table! =( Him and I both got excited about the idea of getting out of Colorado Springs/Ft. Carson. We both wanted to get some distance between us and our old lives and start/create our own life together, the two of us, ect! At the same time my sister is in the process of getting pregnant again and I am very close with my nephew, Nathan and I think it would be very difficult not to be around when she has another. So being 'stuck' here will have it's perks.

But what do we do? Ideally I want to sell the house. It's the biggest burden on us financially. But we just can't sell it at a loss. There is a SMALL teeny-tiny chance we could get what we owe on it. I'm ok with breaking even, if it will simplify my life and relieve stress than I am just fine with that! I am going to talk with Jennifer this week- she's the families resident realtor! ha ha She lives next door to my mother, found my aunt a rental, and found my sisters home. But if this option doesn't pan out and I haven't found a job we're hoping to rent the house by 1 Oct and we'll move into my sister's spare room for at least 9 months (while she prego, fingers crossed) get ahead on some bills and allow me some more time to find a job.

Obviously nothing is fixed or the way we wish it was at this point but at least we're working on it together. =) And thankful at this point we do have a few options- some things to fall back on. Which is progress from 3 or 4 days ago.

Other than all of this nonsense and stress. My weekend was kind of interesting~
Sunday: Cleaned up the house. It was beautiful out; blue skies and only a few clouds in the sky and I had no cash on me so I figured lets take my book ("Breaking Dawn"... yes I'm already on the last book of the Twilight Series... I just burn through these) to a park and just read for a while. So I leave the house a wee-bit peeved and frustrated because I didn't know where to find a park (between my house and my sister's, where I was planning to go after an hour or two). I only know where to find other parks that are no where close to where I needed to be or on the way to my sisters! I was slightly urked by this- it's Colorado for goodness sake and I've lived here since forever! So anyway I finally do find a park by my sister's house after driving around for like 20 minutes I get out to read and it's ridiculously windy! So my entire idea was just out the window! Boo... these are the types of things that really do just ruin my day and manage to actually piss me off (because of all of the other stress I'm dealing with in my life). So I threw my hands up and came back home to read for a little while. I got home, pigged out than watched a few movies. Then my sister called so I went down to her house Sunday night and hung out- this was VERY necessary and a lot of fun.

Saturday: Kevin and I fought in the morning (but are all better now). So I was extremely unmotivated! But my mother called so I went to CostCo with her and my sister for BBQ supplies. So I did get out of the house and had a good time with the family!

Weekend in review is officially over now.


Paula said...

I have faith things will work out how they are supposed to.It can be very unsetteling not having a plan, but it sounds like you guys are working on that. You will find, as I have that when things seem the hardest, when you get a few more miles down the road of life, that these times can be the most rewarding, but that is hard to see right now. We are pulling for you! We love you

JG said...

Hi! Just started following your blog. My husband is (most likely) joining the army within the next few weeks so I'm lurking on as many army wife blogs as I can to prepare myself. :)

I sympathize with the job hunt. I've been looking since March, probably filled out/sent in over 50 applications and resumes, all for nothing. And you are on Breaking Dawn? Is this your first time through? I LOVE Twilight. Have you read The Host?

High Heels & Combat Boots said...

Worrying about selling house=shittiness. I feel you on this right now!!!

Megan said...

I'm hoping everything works itself for you. Sometimes things are real hard before great thing happen. I sent you an email in response to your comment on my blog, I don't know if you got it.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Aw! I hope everything gets worked out for you. I'm sure everything is going to end up just fine!