Tuesday, March 31, 2009

SAD

So here's the deal: the last 24 hrs have been interesting. I have been doing a lot of reading and I have found a lot pretty depressing posts. Well, they aren't meant to be depressing. They are meant to inspire others, and merely to tell a soldier’s story. Well, I'm sorry to blurt it out like this, but truly and honestly I don't know how else to say it: After seeing all of the folded flags, 21-Gun Salutes, and reading all the 'back' stories [that I've found] it's made me pretty damn sad! I appreciate and am deeply sadden by the sacrifice made by the men in these stories. I think that it's only natural that my mind wanders straight to my deployed soldier, right?

My first emotion wasn't so much fear that Kevin would wind up in one of these stories, or fear that he won't make it home... instead I was just sad and found myself in tears on more than one occasion!

I'm not the first wife in these shoes right? Having these sad feelings, sucks BUT how does one deal? I suppose I can accomplish my second goal for the week, and encourage myself to stay positive right? I think the first step is to get off this computer (as much as I enjoy your blogs, and my readers), and move around. Straighten up the house. Gym (maybe, if I actually get that motivated). Well, the point is to get moving!
Thanks for listening today..

2 comments:

The Wife said...

The worst thing you can do is spend all day cooped up in your house! Get out! Spend time with friends or family! It's hard but everyone does have those thoughts when someone they love is in harms way!

Mrs. G.I Joe said...

I agree! Gosh giving yourself too much time to ponder on the (what if's) is never good when your in the here and now...Get out! GO to the gym like you said...Take up a hobbie like I have (running):p I'm trying to find hobbies that insipre me so when I do find myself in those days I have ample areas of interest to help pick me back up! Like you said, just gotta get moving in those directions:) Your not alone though, every militray wife has these days, its just all in how we choose to let it affect our lives.